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Current mood:	aggravated
Entry tags:	roommates, school

late night bitching and a kidney replacement for my roomie....
damn what a night!

so first of all, my roommate is at the hosptial now, as i type at...3 am...yeah, i know, what the hell am i doing up!?! she's getting rid of her two crappy cyst filled kidney's and getting a nice healhty "new" one...her fortunte and kidney being the result of the misfortunte of some parents making the decision of ending life support for a child (a young adult i assume as a too young of a kindey would not work)...or at least this is what they know of the donor...an amazing, tragic and yet hope-filled process.

here's hoping that for my dear friend, that all goes well...the long surgery commences at 7 am and thus will start the long process of healing from the removal of two very bad kidneys and the insertion of one good one...along with lots of drugs, immuno-supressors and all what not...oy!

in other news...i am freaking about school...i am actually freaking so bad that i really think i do not want to be in school AT ALL...like the idea of going tomorrow makes me ill...

i am HATING this semester.

none of my classes are what i expected...ok, no,..stats is what i expected and i hate it...but i expect that.

i have a group project that i got to be the "leader" of...its tied to my intership, i have a group member who is not happy with where we are, what we are doing....in part, i did drop the ball...we are behind on data aquisition, i had thought i'd have that in place before the eemester started...but..well...when your family is still reeling from death and tragedy and your mom is so depressed that you are starting to worry that she is not going to be able to function...its hard to do things like gather data...i know..its still an excuse...but...

so, i got this wonderful passive agressive email from her...it was to the whole group but it was really to me...a very "i am going to take my toys and go play by myelf" passive-agressive rant about how she feels like she is the only one concerend about these things and no one else cares...so if that is how we are going to be, she's gonna just do it all herself and such...*sigh*

my other GIS class is a mess too...i have to write a tutorial for an entry level GIS person on a simple GIS application with parcel data...while none of this may mean anything to you all, suffice it to say that first of all...I AM AN ENTRY LEVEL GIS PERSON!!! if that and if i could write a tutoral for such things, why would i be in school and not, well, writing tutorials and making lots of money!?!

the expectations of both of my classes and the lack of direction is infuriating...i am paing over 10K for this program and as a consumer of a product i am not happy.

which leads me back to the question i posed to myself last semester...if i am not happy, why the hell am i doing this!?!

*BIG SIGH*

ok...on that note, i am going to go sleep for a while...